ASATRON

I must send my warmest thanks to all  wonderful friends for caring about me, my sister and  particularly in my mum.

In distress tested friends. This really shows how truly you are.

You give us light in these dark days.

Love to you!

The worst awakening you can ever imagine happened to me this morning.

My phone rang at six o’clock.

a nurse told me that my dad was gone…

December

I can feel you’re close…

Watching us, waiting…

I can’t see you but your shadow is visible in the corner of my eye…

I can hear you sigh…

Slowly, you’re in no hurry…

I try to ignore you, forget you..

But you always return just when I thought I was free…

I know you’ll win some day

But right now I beg, not today, not today…

Don’t take him away

Because I love him…

Please death, let him stay…

I’ve faced the headache from Hell…
I suffer from migraine and at first I thought I was just another attack…
I took my medicines but for the first time ever they didn’t work…
I went to the hospital and fell asleep in the waiting room…
They took some blood samples and told me that if the pain got worse, go to the emergency ward…
WORSE? Could it be worse? And if it got worse – should I go to a new waiting room and sit there for hours???
So I went home and wished I was dead.
I laid on the couch for 2 a half day until I remembered I had one of the super strong pills left somewhere…
My head was an inferno.
I found it and thought if this doesn’t help I’ll call an ambulance….
I felt like my brain was on fire and someone pierced my head with a burning sword…
I swallowed it and I passed out and slept for 13 hours…
When I woke up I could open my eyes…
I could sit up…
Just a couple of glowing needles were left from the sword…

I think there’s a battle going on between God and Satan.
If God wants to do good for someone, Then Satan has to do bad for someone else…
I think I was the offering this time.
An exchange …
God gave me to Satan and got another human in return…

Wish for the reverse next time…

I just realized that no one is really interested in me or my music.

That sucks!

But still I go on telling you about me and creating new music…

Why ?

Because I’m a fool ?

Yes ! A passionate fool I am.

Here’s my latest song U.F.O. day.
It’s about those mornings you wake up and feel really miserable about yourself…
A bad hair day is just the forename (as we say in Sweden)
You think you’re ugly, fat and old… To others you’re just the same, but you’ve got this feeling and you’re not satisfied with anything… If someone tells you you’re looking good one of these days, you know that person’s a liar!
Recently I discovered these days often are connected to a bad hangover for some reason…

Woke up this morning with a reflection from hell

My eyes are swollen and my skin is pale

My hair is living its own life on my head

I’d better give up I’d better go back to bed

My clothes are ugly and don’t fit at all

My head is hurting like i’ve smashed a wall

Layers of make u still can’t cover my face

I feel like monster from the outer space

I’ve got a UFO day UFO day

It’s all in my head you can’t take it away

I know that you can’t see it my way

No matter what you say

I am Ugly Fat and Old today

My lips are yellow and my lips are dry

Who’s in the mirror I just want to cry

No matter what I do I hate this day

I just want to hide I’d better run away

I need some botox and recovery

I even consider a major surgery

I hope that this condition isn’t here to stay

I shouldn’t have been drinking all that gin yesterday

I’ve got a UFO day UFO day

It’s all in my head you can’t take it away

I know that you can’t see it my way

No matter what you say

I am Ugly Fat and Old today

Haven’t got the time to record my songs…

I have four of them waiting in my studio and at least three memorised in my head…

Yesterday I caught a guitar riff… Suddenly it was there and I saved it in a secret place

in my head… I thought it was to hard for me to play but just before bedtime I grabbed my acoustic guitar just to try…

I could do it! Now I just got to find time to record it…

Think it’s goig to be awesome….

got ideas for the whole song and I’m curious about how it’ll sound…

When I get home from work I’m to tired to focus…

I need a rainy weekend 🙂